Don't Sing

Someday not long from now, I will sing again
Will have a reason to write something again
There are no promises, no hopes or distress
There is still sunshine, and so it will be then

No I don't see,
I cannot see what will I be
I had the right, I could be free
But I locked myself and lost the key
I'll just be me.

I am at http://isb2007.blogspot.com now.

Crash!

Watched the movie Crash - Brendan Fraser, Sandra Bullock and host of other actos that complete a perfect collage of incidents and emotions triggered by racial prejudice and then collide in one event a la 'Magnolia'. Liked the fast paced yet fluid changes in reference points and happenings. And Nona Gaye has done a good job as the black wife.

Will see the Brokeback Mountain next. Someone on ISB pointed out that it was just an outright gay flick. And others said it's good. Let's see...

The Bridges of Madison County

I am in a train going from Karwar to Mumbai. I just finished reading this good book by Robert James Waller I got from Ashwini. Now, I am not a peregrine as defined by Francessa to her kids twenty two years after Kincaid had waxed lyrically during their lovemaking, in response to her bewildered whispers about his emotional and physical power over her, "I am the highway and a peregrine and all the sails that ever went to the sea". I am not a stranger, foreigner, wanderer, leave alone a falcon. I considered myself quite firm footed and worldly until sometime ago. My dreams were academic and my passions professional.

What then draws me to Francessa so much that I almost identify with her? Her undying feelings for Kincaid coupled with her sense of commitment and responsibility that kept her in Winterset, Iowa with her family. What sets apart Kincaid from other dreamers who hold on to images long after the flesh is lost? His longing for Francessa coupled with the self-control that kept him from Winterset, Iowa. I loved the book, I love these two characters. I almost believe in eternal romance now... As you kept getting pragmatic and getting over, I was learning a trait that made me closer to Robert than Richard - love. "In a universe of ambiguity, this kind of certainty comes only once and never again, no matter how many lifetimes you live."

Now onto the next book, which is sure to be in a much much lighter vein than this one - Richard Gordon's 'Doctor in Clover'.

It's not fair!

Can't say what exactly is not fair, but something on this planet or someone much above (depending on your beliefs) is not fair... especially not to me! I mean look at what's happening around me! I let one dream wind my sailboat and it sinks, floats, sinks as rhythmically as the care-two-hoots lulled waves of my life. What am I doing with myself? What will I do with myself?
Kaun si manzil ab haasil kar paayega tu rahmat
Badbani kashti chalata hai hawa ke tangdil phunkon se

Well, I am going to crack that ISB thing down to the ground! Mere se panga lega bedil uparwaale! Chal dekhte hain...

Formula No: 1

As the race day for the Bahrain F1 draws near, let me tell you a nice formula to make yourself so miserable, you want to jump off your office terrace and land head first. I shot myself in the foot several times over the last 6 months in several departments of life. I've just done an encore yesterday night, but let's not talk about that. I could have resigned from Cisco long ago... maybe in January itself, had I known that I didn't really want IMD. All I wanted was change and success to a manageable degree. ISB happened in Jan beginning and soon after stupid me started chasing a double dream of Queens+IMD, spurred on by a strange mix of reasons that will never make sense to my own self. I have already almost burnt out myself, and don't know how well I'll do. Not to mention, I am semi-crazy...

 

Anyhow, post-harakiri, I also find that work is tight, as tight as it could have been! Am working hard, but I don't think I can finish it. So, I'll leave behind dangling pointers ... not literally, cause I don't code in C. Engineering posterity in my team will look at half-cooked pieces of tasteless code and jeer at the MBA lotos-eater who was too good for everything, but turned out to be good for nothing in the end. Don't do this to yourself. When shifting gears it's good to allow room for speed change. I didn't, and got stuck.

 

But, F1's coming! It's going to be good fun with the improved qualification round (I didn't quite like the single car qualify round), and permissible mid-race tyre changes. Check out:  http://www.formula1.com/news/4043.html

Geek bhai!

Bro was in Dallas attending a set of DBMS presetnations and goes presenting something on Oracle to some 400 people people in Tennesse. He has launched a website of his own, www.oraclegeek.net too. Hmm, as I try to go places by climbing rungs, he's already going places by spreading his nerd know-how around! Go, bhaiya.

Snowballed pebble roadrolls dream

Well, actually the dream itself was was just that. I awoke and found that. I do not really want IMD, and I am not going for IMD. A small thing started it all off when my Swiss Visa got rejected and I was asked to reapply personally. It set me thinking if I want all the action, the pace. More importantly, does IMD fit in my scheme of life. In the end, it was the gut feel that said No. More on this later... or maybe not much more on this later. So decision is made, ISB it is. Laut ke buddhu ghar ko aaye. Yep, it's all a circus, life is... or maybe 'Life is what happens when you busy making other plans!' - John Lennon